My dear heart, I don't know why I am writing this, because I really hope that this letter never gets to you, because if it does that me...
I don't know why I am writing this, because I really hope that this letter never gets to you, because if it does that means I am dead. It also means I never had time to show you just how much I really did love you. I will always remember the very first time we met, the very first time my lips touched your lips, the very first time you wrapped your arms around me and rested your head on my shoulder.
Your smile your way of looking at me will always be fresh in my memories.There are so many lovely memories but the fact remains the memories are not enough to bind us for rest of our lives.
Your smile your way of looking at me will always be fresh in my memories.There are so many lovely memories but the fact remains the memories are not enough to bind us for rest of our lives.
You have shown me what love is and what it feels like to be loved. The very first time when you kissed me and our lips touched so softly, I could feel it even right now. I got the same magical feeling as our first kiss right now. I could feel it when our hearts get so close they are beating as one. You are the beat of my heart, the soul in my body; you are me, because without you I am nothing. I love you.
You are the person I know I could turn to when I needed help - you are the person I looked at when I needed to smile and you are the person I went to when I needed a hug. When I am away, it is like I have left my soul at your side.You have shown me how to live and you have shown me how to be truly happy. I want you to know that every time I smile, you have put it there. You make me smile when others can't, you make me feel warm when I am cold.
You have shown me so much love and so much more. I want you to know how much you mean to me. You are my whole world and I love you with all my heart. You are my happiness.Every night I spent away I had a photo of you on my cell, Each night when I would go to bed, kiss my fingers then touch your face. I know you love look over me as I slept. Well, now it is my turn to look over you as you sleep and keep you safe in your dreams. I will always be looking over you to make sure you're safe.
I want to say something and I mean this more than I ever did before. You were the love of my life, the girl of my dreams. Just because if I have passed away does not mean I am not with you. I'll always be there looking over you, keeping you safe. My dear heart, whenever you feel lonely, just close your eyes and I'll be there, right by your side. I don’t want you to become sad, I still live somewhere else, where you can’t see me and can’t hear me, but I will see you and know how you are. I am not dead Dear love. And I will wait for you until you come to me. Everybody has his time and will move sometime. I am guilty that I raised your hopes about wedding, marriage, children and family. I did what I was supposed to do at that time and truly the most unfortunate time of my life.Remember what you are and who would deserve you. I hug you and kiss you on your hands and on the head. And I thank you and apologize for the very wonderful, hard seven short years that you spent with me.
You know there are so many memories that can't even fit into a book, so many laughs, cries, smiles that are all engraved into my heart. Don't worry, even though i'm getting a new heart does not mean the memories will be lost, they will last forever :) you have always found the best in me and simply for that i feel blessed, not blessed for having you, but blessed for knowing you will be by my side.
You know i have come to terms with the fact that i will never see you again:( I know it will be incredibly more painful for me than it will be for you, but when i am gone, take a deep breath my beautiful princess and start a new day smiling knowing i am watching over you. i know things will get extremely painful and strange at first but promise me one thing? That you will miss me like a brave girl. You are simply the most remarkable, beautiful person i know, but i do need to tell you something though because i think you deserve to know , i love you so much more than my life, i honestly fell for you the second i met you. but i know that we could never be together because i am dying and it wasn't fair on you :( but thank you for making everyday with you fantastic, i knew that
your smile would get me through the unforgettable days that made my life so brightful & colorful, but i didn't care, you looked beautiful either way:) i still remember.I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where you are. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.Sometimes you want to say, “I love you, but…”
Yet the “but” word takes away the real ‘I love you’. In love their are no ‘buts’ or
‘if’s’ or ‘when’. It’s just there, and always. No beginning, no end. It’s the
condition-less state of the heart. Not a feeling that comes and goes at the whim of the emotions. It is there in our heart, a part of our heart…eventually grafting itself into each breath. Love cannot change my dear, if it changes with time, it means it was no love. Love lives in our spirit and graces us with its presence each day, until death.If God, for a second, forgot what I have become and granted me a little bit more of life, I would use it to make a wonderful smile on your beautiful and charming face. I wouldn't possibly say everything that is in my mind, but I would be more thoughtful of all I say.
I love you, with no beginning, no end. I love you as you have become an extra necessary organ in my body. I love you as only a boy could love a girl. Without fear. Without expectations. Wanting nothing in return, except that you allow me to keep you here in my heart, that I may always know your strength, your eyes, and your spirit that gave me freedom and let me fly.You Know sweetheart only you're the reason i'm not giving up, You know what ? when the
doctor's told me i might be having 10% chance of surviving this illness,it made me
realize.. you're that 10% of hope, because you make me feel alive :)
I’m feeling lonely this night. I need you the most but you are not here. I need to tell you a secret today. remember I told you about my illness? Yes, I’m sure you remember, because you love me so much that you keep every step I give in your mind. Before going to my appointment with Doctor uncle, you called me almost everyday and you gave me the strength I needed, you said everything was going to be alright, and I believed in your words. I always trust you my love, because you have that incredible power to calm me down when I cannot think clearly. I love you for that. So, that day, the day when I
found out what I’m going to tell you now, that day I wished so desperately that you were there with me. But you were miles away from me and the only thing you could do was to call me. I thank you for that too. Your voice my love, is so peaceful that my heart flies when you talk. Dear please try to understand,if God wants me to leave this life, what can we do? There’s nothing that can be done, but just thank for the life we had. And today, I thank God for making you fall in love with me. I thank God for having you all these years by my side. Please my love, don’t be sad. No matter if I die, I will always love you through time. I've loved you with all my heart, and not even death will split us apart.You make me so happy that all I need now is you to make my life complete. I love you dear.
Don't--don't ever think of the things you can't give me--You've trusted me with the dearest heart of all--and it's so damn much more than anybody else in all the world has ever had. Don't you think I was made for you? I feel like you had me ordered--and I was delivered to you--to be worn--I want you to wear me, like a watch--charm or a button hole bouquet--to the world.Sweetheart ,the hardest part right now in life is being away from you. I'm waiting for that moment when we will meet again. God knows how much I miss you. We may be apart, but my
love for you stays stronger and sweeter. When I feel alone, I close my eyes and I can feel your arms wrap around me, your tender kisses and sweet whispers of "I love you". my sweet love, I never lie to you never. But please forgive me for any lie. But you know if i do a lie, it would be for your better. Its only you my dear who makes me complete in all ways. You're everything for me. I don't know why god has done this to me, its very painful, very very much painful. Sometimes, I never show my pain to you and I really don't want it because I know you get tense. And seeing you in tension is truly more painful than any other pain in my life. I want to care for you, I want to love you, I want...... but . I am sorry. I cannot ever hurt you even in my imaginations, and in reality it is impossible.I wanna meet you soon very soon. I do not cry.
I will not cry. Whenever I think of yourself, its like a hope for me which energizes me to live more. I know nothing gonna happen to me. I wish so deeply to be living with you always always. Dear, you're the only girl who loves me so deeply, truly and really. You're the only one who loves me, who loves Ajay without any selfishness. You're the only girl who is devoted to me 100%. I am so thankful to you and the almighty god to have yourself in my life. But, the life is too short to wonder. I love you always and missing you like crazyzzzzzzz.
I need you. I need you.I need you. Do not ever leave me alone even in thoughts.
Yours & Only yours
